first overseas hospital attachment! scary and lost

alrite... thanks to my goooodooooooooonesssss... i deleted e whole passage tt i typed earlier jus now.. i pressed the wrong key on e key board.. bloody hellll.. there goes.. i was toking abt my very first clinical attachment in diakonie klinikum in stuttgart. i was posted to an orthopeadics ward. a ward i wished i will nvr b aniwae.. so .. believe it or not i got lost in the hospital.. i dunnoe but its jus big n BIG BBiiiiiiiiGGGGGGG wow... wif signage in german where u dun understand a single shit.. wahahaha i cant take it.. oh ya u get new uniform everydae.. using a machine. where u need to tap ur chip to identify ur size and watever... quite cool.. but all these happened in e basement.. where its scary.. long corridors.. seeming endlesss. lots o turns.. where u nvr noe if u will bump into ani person/or not a person... quiet tt u can hear e door click when it closes.. e place is so big that even e handsome guy (he works in e hospital) hu tried to help mi failed to.. n he works in e hospital.. then came e ward its either hip or knee prothesis surgery. pple usually come in for either hip or knee surgery.. onli these two.. their ward (station) is equivalent to 2 wards compared to singapore hospital.. one ward is so big over in germany. there were 2 filipinos staff nurses who can speak english lucky mi.. but e patients here most o them speak PURE german.. shit.. i noe mani procedures they are doing.. but was not in time to do them because they speak in german.. aniwae.. e food they serve to e patient sucks too.. at least i hate it. i dunnoe abt the patients mayb they like it.. muahahaahaha... its cold.. n its bread n cheeeeese.. ooooooo sick.. then in the evening came a doctor.. he helped mi wif the "bahn" meaning the trains to paris.. he offered mi the doctors room to use the comp for internet access.. too friendly.. n because the doctors room is a room... here comes e scary part...
he said : would u like to follow mi?
i said: yes ok..
then we went into e room.. quite dark.. but door open..then
he said: u can use e computer here .. and if anibody asked i can sae its mi hu allowed u to use it..
i said: really.. im allowed?
he said: ya.. but o coz u mus close e door..
n he went up to close e door.. there is only 2 o us in tt dark room wif the computer on... ONLY...
my heart went.. pounding.. i could feel it in my mouth.. i mean he might not mean anithing.. but.. dark room.. tall german guy... small gal like mi... nobody else... dooor closed.. hmmmmmmmmm
but nothing happeneed thank god but it scared e hell out o mi though.. finally i knocked off n its nite time.. in the afternoon is rained so it was really cold at nite.. my lips cracked otw home.. i tried to search for my lip moisturizer... but cant find it.. n i dun wan to stop and find it coy i only wan to reach e hostel as fast as possible as fast as my legs can carry mi.. i hate it.. coz i m alone.. n its nite.. i dun care if its in singapore.. i can walk alone 12mn.. anithing i jus run... at least i noe where to run.. muahahaha but not here.. n i held my map closer n looked at it longer than i looked at my lecture books during exams.. muahahhaha making sure i take e correct bahn (train) asking ard making sure its e correct way and bahn. finally i got home.. n first thing i did is to blog!! i need to pour out all my excitement and worries and fatigue and insecurity and how much i misssed home i wish was having attachment back in singapore.. no problem wif languages.. i can speak english chinese hokkein malay!! how i miss singapore.. HOSPITALS.. cant believe it.. i m nuts.. ok. aniwae.. over here in germany.. when i go to work.. everybody noes it my bdae.. those hu work wif mi wished mi bdae.. n i got flowers for my bdae too.. how sweet.. thank you to all.. to those in singapore thanks too!! i really missed all o u n SINGAPORE.. i wan to go home!! b at home.. but nevertheless i m stuck here for a mth n i m goin to make e most out o it o cz... rite.. chao (bye) now.. i m dead tired...