i jus knew nobody will noe abt tis..

this entry is for myself.. i want to do e reflection thing.. this 2 weeks holidaes huf been a .. slackin n i cant b bothered holidaes.. i huf dumped everything to e dustbin or where ever i can dump it.. so tt i dun need to tink o anithing..
but i tink its jus pure normal human beings of us..
e more things we dump behind.. or wanting to forget it for a while.. other matters will arise n make u tink o it..
n there u thought u could totally relax ur mind n not attack ur brain cells to tink o matters.. but NO. human beings nvr rest e moment they were conceived.. they waste their time growing.. wasting their time looking for things.. waste their time to work towards their goals.. waste their time to solve problems waste their time to solve n help others problem.. whereever u are.. HUMAN BEINGS nvr stop thinking n working!! i mean nvr stop.. can be things like.. n can b relaxing during ur holidaes.. but u CAN be busi eating!! busi thinking what u WANT to
eat for the dae n tmr.. n daes to come!!
this is life n HUMANS!


n poor poor komeng.. everytime he booked out i m sure he wants to see mi happpily n we are able to spend happy times together.. but i always wiill pour watever shit i huf in this week or watever to him when we meet.. i feel tt i huf to.. coz i wan him to noe what i huf been doing in my life even though its e suckiest thing on earth.. i feel so bad.. i wan him to noe how i had been feeling e past daes tt kind o thing.. sometimes when things dont huf a solution or wat.. i sulk.. n didnt bother to gif him more tender loving care.. awww.. i m such a bad girlfriend:( i noe tt its ok to share ur thoughts n watever wif e other half.. but if u always hear boring stories u get bored n fed up one dae.. same to hearing demoralising stuffs. u get demoralised too.. i m so afraid komeng starts to feel demoralised too!! hahaha he cant! coz he needs lots o motivation now! in his training n all! n i wan to be there!

hopefully works come along.. n i start to get bz all over again
then when things become smoother.. i get used to it..
oh come on jas.. i noe u dun wan to grow old.. but cant b helped...
grow old or die.. i choose to grow old for now..
coz i still believe e world
is beautiful..
coz i huf u .. komeng :)

i love u !

P.S: i assume nobody is reading this.. dun let mi noe ok. :)