the sweetest dream of 2008

the sweetest dream o 2008!

dreamt of getting married in school on the day when we all graduated

everything was so sugary, heartwarming, loving n teary and "dreamy" (duh!)

speeches from loved ones, friends n the one... melts all the hearts and made everyone smile..

i woke up frm my dream smiling, smiling brushing my teeth... walking in n out o my bedroom smiling all along... purely enjoying the happpiness frm tt dream... the happiness that splashes all around mi frm head to toe...

this dream is for mi... solely for mi... i love this dream... thanks for giving me this dream.. thank who i dunnoe..

but thanks dream...
chuckles...:)

e past brought up again

recently about the changes in the club.. reminds mi o my time...

where mi n naz n liyana were veri close.. but coz o e club, our thinking differs.. n went sort o a bit spilt ways..

on e surface, we still see each other as friends and hug each other when we meet.
on my part, i believe tt, in watever we believe in, our friendship nvr sway. so i continued to hug them n love them as usual.

but i ever told komeng, i felt so hurt by them. but i nvr sae it out. i felt betrayed. not tt they literally betrayed mi, but tt we do not stand on e same boat animore.

i remembered once we suppose to go supper together after climb, but e situation became so intense tt i realli hate naz n liyana together wif the club. but i told myself i cant hate them coz they are like one o my souls, how can i hate my own soul?

in the end, naz n liyana felt too awkward to attend e supper together, n thus they went off..

at tt point o time, i see where we stand, clearly, till now.. thought we are no longer in these positions animore, i believe, if we turn back e time, naz, liyana n mi will do e same thing again..

the line drawn was clear.

so wat if we are friends?
we contain our own brains we think o our own.
one stay independent in the world... u cant die bringing another one with u ...
same goes with thinking and ideas.

but people always crave for support, another's agreement.
we cant stand alone, revolutionists/opposition parties do everything(riots etc.) to get support frm pple to earn a big win..

we are all human beings.. y mus we hurt one another, we are all friends, y do we need to be so harsh towards one another?

why is it.. pple are so afraid to communicate face to face? why m i so afraid ? is there anithing within my eyes tt will betray myself?

its so hard to be sharing this deep feelings with another party, ani other party.
is tt why pple suffer frm depression, schizophrenia?

i tink i will one dae...

i realli wana fight it out, i wana literally punch anibody whom i hate n those hu hurt mi.
i dont wanna keep it in my heart. i dun wan plasticity, i dont wan to b shaking the hand's of the person tt i dislike.
but it seems as if everybody is taking e course plasticity, n everybody is scoring well... including mi..
plasticity is used to run away frm problems. i m the avoider. there are jus too mani things to avoid.