internal turmoil

a colleague o mine jus passed away todae..
we are not close...
quite a few o us went to visit her..
seeing her jus make tears roll uncontrollably for most o us..
but i jus wanna hold back my tears...
its in my head e whole nite....
then i had to tell someone abt it... not cry to some one.. but jus let him or her noe sth happen in my life todae... n i jus nid her or him to noe it...
how amazing emotions can be...
my condolences to e deceased family n loved ones...